The Contradicted Existence

What remains when we strip away the illusions we hold about ourselves?

The Contradicted Existence examines this question through twenty-four essays that refuse to comfort or prescribe. This work explores fundamental contradictions: we are selfish yet unified with existence, determined yet experiencing free will, capable of both good and evil, isolated yet desperate for belonging.

The first section confronts selfishness directly—not whether we should be selfish, but acknowledging that we are, distinguishing between natural selfishness (conscious acceptance) and pathological selfishness (narcissistic denial).

Death appears not as something to overcome but as motivator. Sexual instinct is revealed as directing far more of our actions than we consciously acknowledge. Gender dynamics receive frank examination presenting complementary rather than identical roles—a perspective many readers will find controversial.

Consciousness and free will are explored through paradox: we experience free will within deterministic existence. The self we think we are—constructed from family labels, school grades, job titles, others' opinions—is revealed as image, not essence.

This is not transformation literature. This is philosophical inquiry examining what is, not what we wish to be.